“But mere lounging wasn’t enough.
Only problem? If I wasn’t moving forward,
I felt like I was going to explode.” Eddie Morra “Limitless”
Now, I put that quote on my Facebook a couple weeks ago and while on the surface it sounds like a good problem to have but unfortunately it’s as much of a curse as it’s a blessing.
While I have always been highly motivated, medication cleared my head so much that it intensified said motivation. I am accomplishing more now on a daily basis than I ever before.
“I was blind but now I could see.” Eddie Morra “Limitless” Last quote I promise.
I no longer needed to Manage my Mid Day, I just blow through the afternoon into the night. I don’t just Plan the next day in advance, I am about 5-7 days ahead in my scheduling. Delegation, is at a all time high.
So why is that a problem for me?
While I am extremely happy with the results of the ADHD medication as it was determined that I was “at or near a full therapeutic dose” , one thing I had hoped it would improve was my constant desire. And I’m not talking about my desire to work on my career, we are talking about the constant urge to improve myself in any way that interests me in that moment.
I can finally sit still without figeting, stand without pacing, listen and actually hear someone speaking. But I can’t sit and watch a football game without answering email, or cleaning up the kids room during commercial breaks.
I know I shouldn’t complain about this. Some people struggle to find the motivation to get out of bed in the morning. I should count myself lucky. Just don’t want to wake up one morning and be 75 and not know where all the time went.