One of the red warning signs for ADHD that should have been going off through my entire adult life was that no matter how good things were going in my life, there I always some level of discontent or unhappiness.
Just looking back at the beginning of this year as an example. I’m married with three great kids, I run a successful restaurant, and just purchased my first home that I had worked so hard for, but there is was again. Something was missing. I then devoted a whole year to making myself happier.
At work, it didn’t matter that I had year after year of positive sales growth. It didn’t matter that I had beaten my own insecurities to thrive in an extroverted environment. It didn’t matter that I was well valued by my higher ups. It wasn’t enough. To the point where I know I drove my employees from the top down INSANE. “Is nothing that I do good enough to make this guy happy?” I’m sure has come out of their mouths plenty of times. Of course this is a good side to never being satisified at work. To always be climbing.
Outside of work was even worse. What was the point in having a house? I always had to be doing something, going somewhere. And then when I would get there, wherever it was, after spending a great deal of money or time it would never be enough. Never quite live up to the hype.
Why? Why was I so discontent?
All along it came down to a simple chemical imbalance of the brain.
One of the most common issue among ADHD brains is their ability to produce a neurotransmitter called Dopamine. “Dopamine allows us to regulate emotional responses and take action to achieve specific rewards. It’s responsible for feelings of pleasure and reward.” According to Healthline.
But to put it in simple terms. I and other’s with ADHD crave Dopamine. We are like “Dopamine Seeking Missiles”. Which keeps us bouncing from activity to activity, emotion to emotion, stimulus to stimulus to find it.
We get the hit of Dopamine just like any other person. But unlike the average person who can be stimulated for a long time, our Dopamine high doesn’t last very long. Which can create a lot of disruption in our daily lives.
This is the main reason I asked for help in this matter. If anything I can come away from it with a better understand of myself.