I had hit a breaking point recently. I had gotten tired of those that would take advantage of my laid back attitude and my compassionate nature.
Those that know me know that while I might put up a non-caring and cold front on the exterior that I am a very warm and secretly emotional person.
I worry when a family member or friend is having a hard time. I feel empathy for my employees when they are having a hard time making rent or struggling with a personal problem and I do all I can to cut people slack and to provide help. Whether with some helpful advice, a hand moving out of their apartment, or $20 until payday.
But then there are others….those who intend to play me. Play off my nonchalantness and understanding. They take advantage. And I have hit a wall.
I am not a confrontational person. I will admit that some of it comes down to courage. And i realized that I just can’t let it go anymore.
I was inspired when listened to an old radio interview recently from Rosa Parks, famous for her work in the civil rights movement. Her rise to fame began on the day when she refused to give up her seat on the bus to a white passenger. She was so young and meek and had been pushed around her whole life. And with one decision, she started a movement.
“Did you plan it?” the interviewer asked
“No.” said Rosa
“Then what made you refuse to move?”
“I don’t know. I just felt in the moment that I had been pushed as far as I could stand to be pushed.”
So no, I’m not looking for conflict with others, but I am looking to stand up not only for myself but those who are pushed around.